With that, I conclude that I have officially lost interest in clubbing.. Maybe not forever, but I'm just bored of it presently. I'm not one who values routine because I will just get disinterested after awhile. I prefer life to be exciting, embarking on different kind of adventures whenever and wherever to spice up the dullness of life. That's what ultimately adds meaning to your life, ain't it?
It was fun initially, just forgetting about your image for the night under the influence of alcohol, dancing crazily to various beats of different songs together with different group of friends, laughing insanely at the most random stuffs ever, making new friends from the boost of courage gained from alcohol, then filling up our starving tummies with alcohol still running in our blood after the night has ended. To think about it, it may sound like fun, but to do basically be doing the same things weekly, or sometimes even triweekly (Wednesday, Friday, Saturday), it gets from fun to boring real quick. On top of that, I feel super exhausted the moment I reach home around 6-8AM in the morning, and end up sleeping and wasting my entire day. I don't have the discipline to wake up after a short nap and maximize my day, because I'll just fall right back asleep before I even try to separate my head from my pillow. I guess this is the primary reason of my screwed up body clock.
I just feel that there's so much more to life than partying madly ever so often.. I'm not saying that it's bad as you'll definitely need to let loose sometimes, and this is just one of the few ways that I engage in to temporarily get away from all the bullshit that happens in my daily life. Then again, I'm gonna sound so contradicting here, because there's really nothing much to do in Singapore. Not much activities for night owls, and everything is so expensive. After a while, you'll just find yourself doing the exact same things you were doing probably 2 weeks or a month ago.
Whatever it is, I just hope to learn how to seize the day. I just turned 20 in the beginning of the month, which means to say that I've already lived 1/4 of my life (maybe I'll die sooner or later? who knows, just an average gauge), and I don't wanna look back on my life in future knowing that I've accomplished nothing significant and that my prime years were in a blur. I know, I'm only young once, which can mean many things.. It means that I can either screw my life up because I'm still young and stupid OR that I can view it as an opportunity to do many other meaningful things because I may not have the chance to do such things when I'm older and more occupied.
My choice to make.
Kisses,
Vinez
